 I'm falling to pieces.Saturday, October 12, 2013 | 0Superstar (s)!
A blog post at 5AM. Must be nuts but just expressing and pouring everything out right now no one will read it anyway lol. My eyelids feel so heavy as if they're 69kg. Pretty interesting number huh, pervs. Tsk, jk.Hello people, I'm back after two months? I don't know lol. Blogging through my ipad because I can't seem to sleep and have nothing better to do. Missing my babyboy so much but he's snorring like a pig. Oh well. Still can't change the love I have towards him heheh ok I need to stop being cheesy. Y'all are gonna be like, ewwwwwww. So whatsup? I don't know man. October sucks balls for me. Went through so much bullshit. It was hell to me. God please save me from this misery. 3 days till finals and I'm like, blegh. Went through so much hardcore bullshit that made me strong and who I am right now. (Lol no not really that's just a phrase everyone says don't they? I'm still in recovery mode if that ever made sense.) How was your October? Probably the month I hate the most after March. Yeap. I still remember October 6th 2011 used to be the most hurtful day I've ever been through in my whole entire life (those that know me since primary will know why & I won't be bother talking about it here) yet history repeated on the same freaking day two years later, October 6th 2013. But Thank God nothing that bad happened I manage to handle it and move on. Well yep. Reasons why October sucks balls. 1. Friends. Ugh as usual. Backstabs. Again. Forever. Since young till now I'll always be the one who get stab in the back by the one whom I trust again and again without me noticing it but when I realize, it's all too late. Pretty dumb move huh Chloe? I trusted you. As they saying goes, “Trust is like a piece of paper. Once it's crumpled it can never be perfect again.” Doesn't mean I forgive, I will trust you like how I did. I'm not 5. I won't be that stupid to be tricked by that pathetic move of yours. I'll never look at you the same way anymore nor treat you good. Don't even dream about it. One day, karma will get you. One fine fcking day. I've realize that out of 10 close friends, 7 of them will also stab you no matter how close you are to them because hypocrites. Foolish, idiotic people like me will only trust people like you because I'm too soft-hearted and gulliable which people often takes advantage on me. One piece of advice, never ever go beyond someone's limit because you'll never know what might happen next. Note to self: Never trust someone easily. (But too kind hearted. That's why I trust easily and get stab again and again and complain. Idiot.) 2. Trust issues. Not sure if born with trust issues, or my personallity is just like that or people love to take advantage on me. People whom disappoint me the most are the ones who don't appreciate the trust I have in them. Just because I trust you, that doesn't mean you can do something mysterious behind my back isn't it? Why would you even take advantage on people whom loves and trust you? Trust me, if you're in a relationship please don't ever lie to a girl because GIRLS remember everything you GUYS say. Never take trust issues lightly. Never ever do that. Besides, trust issues will definitely cause whole lot of misunderstanding, arguement, and fights. For example, you tell him/her you're going to hit the sack but your last seen on Whatsapp was 2 mins ago. What the hell is that supposed to mean man? If you don't feel like talking, say it. Telling the truth is always better than lying. Next up is, you tell him/her you're at your friends' house/etc but you end up checking-in at a club. Wrong move. Let me tell you something about girls, they find out everything. And when they find out that you're lying, you're 101% dead. It'll ruin her/his trust that she/he has in you. And will start to be suspicious in everything you do. Not cool ain't it? Then don't lie. Futhermore, you tell him/her you've no internet line/wifi/3g bla bla but you end up liking statuses and commenting on photos on Facebook. When you're caught, you're fucked. And you'll have to restart this relationship because no trust = shit. Worth it? No? Then don't. Never ever lie to someone who means the world to you because when you loose that trust she/he has in you, you're screwed. It's easy to loose someone's trust but it's freaking hard to gain that trust back. So don't loose it. 3. Third parties/Bitches/Ex-es. Know your limits. Don't go overboard. Yes you may not like it if someone changes when they have their partner but at least respect their relationship. Don't go intereferring people's life as I'm sure you wouldn't like it if people interefe yours too isn't it? Apply these into your head: "Don't do things that you wouldn't like it when others do it to you." Same as put yourself in other's shoes before doing something to them. Some people need to learn how to respect other's relationship and not going "Miss you <3" putting love and shit like that. Calling at 2am just to tell them you miss tje,. Like what the hell is the other half gonna think about it? Something cheesy going on? Especially if you're his/her ex. Please back off. It's impolite and rude. He might be your bestfriend, sure. But not everyone is as open-minded as you are. I don't like sharing what's mine and if you lay your finger tip on what's mine, I'll make you pay. Call me stingy. I don't give a shit cause I don't wanna loose him. Some people need to know that, you yourself didn't appreciate him/her while you're with them then don't go disturbing his/her relationship. It'll only causes arguement and worse come to worse break-ups. Because of your unmoral flirtish behaviour causing a relationship to be over? I wouldn't feel good about it at all but I'm not sure about you. I'm not gonna sit here and do nothing while you are snatching away what's mine. Ever met the biggest bitch? You'll meet the biggest bitch when a girlfriend activates her bitch mode. You sure don't wanna mess with that. I'm not talking about anyone here but if the shoe fits, then lace that bitch up. Back the fuck off and lay your fucking hands away from him or I will not let this shit run. This is just my point of view. Not everyone will agree but that's just a thought. No hard feelings to anyone out there. Xoxo By the way, buy Heartbreaker by Justin Bieber on iTunes! It's biebmazing (Biebermazing) lols. That's all for today. Finals are coming soon and I'm like.... Ugh whatever. Till next time! Xoxo, Chloe. Labels: bieber, Bitches, life, rant Effort.Saturday, August 3, 2013 | 0Superstar (s)!
Hello everyone. My very first blogpost here lol. Please disregard my grammar and if whatever I'm saying doesn't make sense, ignore. I'm only 14. Lol. I'm going to talk about effort, yeap.
Effort.
What is effort?
Right lol, everyone knows what is effort right? Well for me, I think effort is a very important thing in our lives. Like you need effort to continue a friendship/relationship/to success in studies/to success in whatever you're doing.
Friendship.
In a friendship, regardless of any friendship eg: bestfriends/normal friends/etc, you'll need effort to continue a friendship. Why? Well it's because without effort you won't be having friends.
For example you're in a new school where you don't know anyone there and you're a complete stranger there. What do you do? Ofcourse! You make new friends. How do you make new friends? Effort.
You need to put in effort like going to approach them & introducing yourself to them and vice versa. Tadaa! Friends made. Easy isn't it? Sounds easy but it actually isn't. Different people different mindset.
But for me, effort means alot to continue a friendship. Let's just say your bestfriend in class is leaving tomorrow. She/He's leaving because she's shifting to a new school. How do you keep contact? Effort.
Well for me, I'll definitely talk to them on social networks (whatsapp, etc) to make sure they're fine there and to chitchat about their lives and yack on the phone till late night or something idk.
But all you need is effort to keep the friendship going. You need both parties to give effort to keep a friendship alive. Imagine if one doesn't find him/her and the other doesn't too, what's going to happen to their friendship? Best friends = Strangers. Sad isn't it? Yeah I know. Effort.
Relationship.
It's actually almost the same. To continue a relationship, ofcourse you'll need effort (and trust, love, etc).
 
To be honest, most of the relationship end too soon because one party decides to stop putting in effort where as the other one puts alot effort in to make the relationship unbalance then sink.
For example,
You see how the relationship falls? Lack of effort. Yeah, that's why. Maybe one gets tired after putting in so much effort and not getting anything in return. That feelings sucks. It feels like that you're not worth it. If one put too much effort in while the other doesn't put anything in, it's unbalance. It's the same. To make an effort is actually very easy. As for girls, guys need to make sure that she feels secured/loved by telling her you miss her, that you love her, that you're afraid to loose her.
Little things makes girls laugh/happy. It's very easy to keep a relationship going as long as you have faith, trust, love in each other. Ofcourse, effort is needed. You'll have to make sure your partner is feeling okay and all. ( I sound like a love guru lol) To make a relationship balance, both parties have to put in effort. For example, to make time for each other, to spend time with him/her, to talk to her/him on the phone, to make her/him feel loved you know. Prove it to her/him that you need them in your daily life or else they'll over think (especially for girls). Words mean nothing if you don't prove it. If no action is taken, words are useless.
So don't even bother saying 'I miss you' when you don't do anything to prove it that you miss your partner. Appreciate your partner while she/he's still there for you. Don't bother regretting after loosing someone great. Don't ever regret if someone that actually treats you well decided to leave you because of your shitty behaviour and the way you treat them. There's no point regretting as one saying goes "Tidak guna menyesal kerana nasi sudah menjadi bubur."So appreciate, people.
Appreciate whatever your partner does for you. Don't ever take someone for granted.
Not gonna blab so much about relationship as different people has different perspectives and point of views.
PROVE IT. SHOW IT. DO IT.
Well this blog post is actually dedicated to Alicia, remember that you still have your friends, family to support you. We love you.
Thanks for reading me blab, bye.
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